Me then and now

Me then and now

This blog is a re-direct from babygotsober.com which was started in October of 2009. The intent of this site is to provide information about what one can expect to happen while residing in a treatment facility for drugs and alcohol. Profound changes can and will happen when a patient gets healthy and learns about addiction. Everyone is full of hope and excited about a positive future of living in sobriety. It will probably be the hardest task a person takes on in a life-style change. And if they succeed the first time, they will be in the minority.

Going to rehab is just the Beginning. It is Where you get Sober.

Your choices When you Leave rehab is How you Stay Sober.

This un-touched photo was taken 12/23/08 at Texas Star in Austin, TX around 2:00 pm. It is my treatment Mugshot photo that was taken about 20 minutes after I was wheeled in the door of this life saving facility.

What you don’t see is that there is a strap holding me up in the chair and that I weighed 86 lbs. What you don’t know is that I cannot believe I woke up that sunny morning after all the poison I drank and pills I swallowed. What you also don’t know is that my sweatpants are soaked and that I did not care because I do not remember peeing in them. I have no memory of this photo being taken nor of most of that week for that matter. I am told I cried often and ate ridiculous amounts of candy.

What is Not Funny is that I willingly did this to myself. What is hard to live with is the Torment and Hell I put my Parents, Brothers and my Best Friends through. What is a Miracle is that I got Sober and I Finally Stayed Sober.

I am 41 years old. My name is Rachael and I am an Alcoholic. I’m writing about my not-so-unique story in hopes of helping someone who thinks they may have an addiction problem. My problem was Wine and sometimes Vodka and they came very close to killing me.

This is my story about Why and How I got Sober and more importantly about How I am continuing to stay Sober today. The Whos, Whats, Wheres and Whens will become clearer as I examine the final days of my Rampant Drinking, Rehabs, Relapse, Extended Rehab and now Recovery.

The following is from the Info on my Facebook page. I’ve been directing new FB Friends to check it out to see what I’ve been doing.

I’m currently writing an unpublished blog about what one can expect to experience in a drug/alcohol/addiction treatment center and how to remain sober when you return to reality. As a recovering alcoholic I have had long-term, short-term and “drive-thru” patient care for a serious problem that too often goes untreated and ignored. I had help in ’06 at the boy-girl La Hacienda of Dr. Phil fame and last year spent 4 months at 2 facilities in Central TX. 3 months were in Boerne, TX at a female only place of healing. I have been sober since January 14, 2009.


Website in progress.

Before I almost drank myself to death, I was living in Commerce City, CO with my fiancĂ© and functioning very well as an Occasional Drinker. That also depends upon what you believe to be the definition of ‘Occasional’. Webster’s defines it many ways but I especially like “special event or celebration” and “favorable opportunity”. Having explained that, I drank every day and enjoyed every minute of it until the bottle was half empty. That meant a trip to the liquor store and $8 out of my pocket if you include fuel.

My habit cost me close to $3,000 a year. That’s not a bad figure. However, if you consider that it cost around $54,000 for four months of back-to-back rehab, the circumstance changes. When you understand that I did Not have Health Insurance to pay for it, you might see that I am like many Americans today. When you wonder Why I Couldn’t Just Stop drinking I will explain. Every End has a Beginning and this is how I Got Sober and Why I Am Sober Today.

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